hell and heaven are for me primarily symbolic. Probably, if not the fact that I was born in a country where membership of the Roman Catholic faith for many determinant Polishness and that my family did not show originality and apart from a few atheists, Protestants and a few Buddhists, they were all more or less openly Catholic , hell and heaven as an abstract concept, would be for me to just empty words.
I remember as a child, who willy-nilly had to go to Mass to attend church and catechesis, I was more fascinated by hell than heaven. I wondered often, lying in bed in the dark, or in addition to a personal angel who watched over me, I have a personal devil, who also watches a little differently. My angel was beautiful, with blue eyes and white hair. He smiled, but so very sad, so this was a very sad smile. He looked at me as if they guessed that ever betray him and leave. When I was 12 years old rebelled and said that such a god I do not want to categorically deny, because it is evil, cruel, and I do not want to be any more frightened of hell, devils, and original sin, is the first month he had terrible dreams. Before the church, the great Gothic church, on the night I was tortured by devils, attacked me and tore me. Falls into the center of the tornado and I was so horribly abused by the nature and strength of heavenly-hellish. I remember the square in front of the church, the dark and terrible fear. It was a nightmare, but those dreams are still more confirmed me in my resolve. God, who threatens, forces, and which need to be afraid, will not be my guide.
And so I became a eklektykiem, atheist, Buddhist, little, little, and adheres to his own personal faith. I try to avoid hell on earth, every day in life, in relationships with others, but also in my thoughts and feelings. Heaven and hell, we create ourselves, our lives, our thoughts, feelings, beliefs, hatreds, loves, jealousies and bad relationships. Hell and Heaven
creates for us the nature of and the condition associated with being a homo sapiens.
After such a long introduction about time for my image.
is an installation consisting of four panels. A title of this installation is, of course, "Heaven exists on my mind" from the series My Brain. Acrylic on canvas + grains, pieces of candle, and many other strange things, 80 cm x 80 cm
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